This blog is a mix of everyday randomness, impulsive thoughts, and the occasional deep reflection I wasn’t emotionally prepared for. There’s no structure here—just vibes, caffeine, and a lot of overthinking. If you’re into messy but entertaining storytelling, welcome aboard!
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Everything unravels—then slowly, painfully, begins to rebuild. Kana finds herself caught between the comfort of a love she once thought she wanted, and the quiet steadiness of the one who’s always been there. Kaito finally confesses, but it’s too late. Shin steps back, convinced he was never chosen. And Ren, still haunted by Yui’s memory,
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Memories of The End (Ch. 40 – 56)
Kaito’s near-fatal accident becomes the catalyst that forces each character to confront their own grief, guilt, and long-avoided truths. Ren spirals and finally cracks, Aoi steps in as an unexpected lifeline, and Kana unravels—only to be held together by Shin in a moment that shifts their dynamic irrevocably. As Kaito recovers, old feelings resurface, unspoken
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THE REASONS WE STAY AND SPIRAL
“The Songs” Let’s talk about why I fell so hard for BTS—and why the rabbit hole was less of a fall and more of a willing swan dive. It’s ARMY engagement, for sure. Yes, we’re infamous. One of the largest, loudest, most mobilized fanbases in the world. That’s a known fact. But it wasn’t just
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Welcome to ARMY : Where Chaos is Beautiful
The Illusion of Control (And the Fault I Willingly Opened) My journey as a baby ARMY started on YouTube. At first, I thought, “This is manageable.” I’d watch the music videos. A few “funny BTS moments” compilations. Maybe a couple of crack edits. I figured if I covered the basics—MVs, stage performances, iconic run-throughs of
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The Unplanned BTS Obsession: The Moment BTS Took Over My Life
Recounting of my unexpected journey into the world of BTS, starting from skepticism to deep fandom. Initially dismissive of K-pop, I became captivated after witnessing BTS’s authentic Tiny Desk performance. It is a journey of my transformation from a casual listener to a committed ARMY, highlighting the band’s chemistry, emotional depth, and engaging presence.
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Prologue: A Decade of HYYH — And the Story I Never Planned to Write
April 29th, 2025. Today marks exactly 10 years since BTS released The Most Beautiful Moment in Life, Pt. 1 — or, as we fondly know it, HYYH (화양연화, Hwa Yang Yeon Hwa). I wasn’t there when it first dropped. I wasn’t an ARMY yet. I didn’t even know what HYYH meant — or that it
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Day 2: The Umbrella Broke Me, YOASOBI Fixed Me”
—A Standing Section Saga of Screaming, Lightsticks, and Sudden Existentialism Rain, Umbrellas, and the Identity Crisis of a One Piece Fangirl Welcome back to Day 2 of my YOASOBI concert adventure—also known as the day I was ready to jump, scream, cry, and dance… but almost got taken down by an umbrella. See, unlike Day
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Memories of The End (Ch. 18 – 39)
Aoi finally learns about Yui, and it changes how she sees everything—especially Ren. Kana tries to stay strong, but the cracks start showing. Kaito misses too many signs until it’s almost too late. And Ren begins to unravel in ways he didn’t expect. As old pain collides with new feelings, the group finds themselves tangled
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Memories of The End (Prologue – Ch.17)
A year after a tragic accident, Kana, Ren, and Kaito are still haunted by the past—until Aoi stumbles into their lives. Moving to a new city for a fresh start, she never expected to become entangled in old wounds and unspoken grief. But as friendships form and buried truths resurface, Aoi realizes that healing doesn’t
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Wooden Benches and Fangirl Fervor: Surviving Yoasobi Concert Day 1
In my last post, I mentioned contemplating going full-on, two-day obsessed fangirl mode for Yoasobi’s concerts. And, well… me being me, you already knew I’d find a way to make it happen. Spoiler alert: I did. Both days. No regrets. So, here’s the tale of my concert adventure—a.k.a. the two days I was physically running
Diary of A Chaotic Dreamer 